Thursday, 9 December 2010, 09:51
A mixture of feelings today Woke up early in the morning today, to prepare my presentation in the afternoon. Then I found out that on of my facebook friend passed away. I don't really know him but he is my friend's friend. A status of my friend caught my attention which lead me to his page. His profile is quite blank, guessed he deleted all the post. However, there is some status and a note left. I screened through the status, mostly wrote with much dissapointment and miserable his life was. The note is for his ex. From the note, I could see that he loved her very much, he couldn't accept the fact that she rejected him. So, he planned to suicide and he said it's not the girl that should be blamed. He said at 12am, everything will be settled. A lot of his friends commented, some cared for him, some thought he was joking. I went on reading, they said he jump off the building and was sent to HUKM. At first he was saved and in a stable condition, then ' I dont know why' he passed away. Guess he didn't have to courage to live on. So, he died for his ex-gf, and I was speechless. Anyhow, I wished he R.I.P. thou I don't really agreed with his act. It was a bad start of my day.
So, when I reached school, I borrowed a newspaper from my classmate. I want to try my luck if I can find out any news on why star LRT was broke down yesterday around 6pm. Some one killed himself or something awful or whatever that cause the break down, that was what i checked online yesterday. But, I found none. Should I be relieved? NO. Cause that newspaper showed me much news that I wished I didnt read. A car accident which lead to 3 youth's death ( the driver was only 17 ), huge flood in 'someplace' due to the bad weather, a women jump off the building infront of her neighboors and own son because she couldn't bare her 'gambling' husband', two news on a 14 years old student and an young adult ( run away from home ) owing the 'dai yi long' ( the bloodsucker, i called) more than rm20,000 because of online gamble. There were other news which I couldn't recall now, pathetic ones. I barely read newspaper and that was what showed to me when I have the interest to open it. Anyway, the above info might not be 100% true as I typed what I remember, what I know.
My feelings were just down, down, down. Nevermind I thought, I need to be in good condition for I have a presentation in the afternoon. But, Guess what my honoured lecturer said when he came in? 'I taught 2 slots of classes today and I hadn't eaten the whole day, I am exhausted and sorry to say, class today cancelled. I can't concentrate too even you guys are ready to present to me, let's make it next tuesday, shall we?' I was like WHAT THE?! are you kidding sir? I thought I finally can be relieved after this presentation, and now, a few more days of presentation's burden on me.
So, class cancelled. But I dont feel like going home, it's still early. So, I went midvalley with friend and watched ' Narnia '. I needed some chilling time after such 'incidents'. The movie was good, at least better than harry porter. I just don't really enjoy the characters this time compared to the first 2 episodes. My day end quite ok, at least without any negative ions add on.
Now, I am exhausted. After 'throwing' all these out, thou reality is cruel, hopefully I can get a sweet dream tonight.
Be freed from pain, be relieved from sadness doesn't mean jumping off from a cliff.
It mean you gave in, you gave up the chance to be happy.
-puǝ-
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