Thursday, 7 April 2011, 08:26
Shut up and cry to ownself I used to believe 'sharing is caring'.
But today, I rethink about that. I guess I am a selfish person afterall.
I don't want to share with anyone. I want it to be my own, just me.
Perhaps is because the place I came from, I had been taught to trust no one.
I am not sure how many burden can I handle, before I get insane.
I have never told anyone about one matter, the most important matter in my life.
Everyone has at least one darkest secret, which they want to keep to themself and never be revealed.
Cause no matter how well you explain and describe, no one will understand the feeling better than ownself.
So, why revealing? Ya, shut up and cry to ownself.
I have tried to be understanding, a better person.
Maybe it wasn't that obvious, but at least I tried.
With just one call, one sentence, one act, hope can be destroyed.
It really xxx hurting when you are the 2nd choice, always. When all the while, you thought you are the 1st.
I doubt about friendship, marriage, relationship, and even my parents.
How a life can be ruined by wrong choice and stubborness.
Did I expect too much from my life? Maybe because I was pampered or had not been thrown by any obstacles yet.
I am a very traditional woman, I don't accept things that go against nature or culture, which is why I imagined the world beautifully, such an idiot I am.
Yes, I wanted to go for a bungee jump. Thou I knew I would hesitate when I am tied to the rope, before stepping out.
One day, I will.
Labels: Crappie, Sophisticated
